Life is when I finally trust and allow correctness.
Following what is natural for me seems to be the best thing I am doing to myself. The more patient I become and the more able I am to wait to see what's correct for me or the moment when something is correct for me, the more radical I can be with that, the more “magic” and perfect timing I see in my life… so much more fun and interesting is the journey unfolding, than from before when I was often running blindly after some imaginary outcome.
Before meeting Huma Design I was feeling quite lost in the consequences from the choices in my life. I don’t remember ever, having a strong inner sense of direction or identity. I never had a clear picture of myself being anything in particular and I was afraid of this “lack”... my mind was so scared that I used to take in and hold on to the identities of people around me, people I love and we lived together... Which is also not bad, if you can be aware and learn from it for a short period of time maybe,.. and let it go. I am not regretful about what happened to me before Human Design. It all was quite educational and brought me to the place where and when I was ready to meet and understand my life better.
To be able to see that this is simply how I am designed and it is okay for me to be like this, is so precious. Human Design helped me to understand this part of me and supports me to relax into just watching what my magnet naturally attracts further on my trajectory, rather than trying to figure it out and manifest it.. And now, I don’t need anymore to know how and what exactly is this, there is no need to possess a sense of this or that identity… but there is a sweet excitement... in watching, following myself and ending in wonder :)
Human Design came to me not from the conditioning of someone around me. It was not through a reading either. It found me.. deep in the woods, in a moment when I was "hiding" from life, living in a very remote place with only a few people. I was not looking for it or anything, but it crossed my way through a friend and hooked me, then slowly began to shift my perspective and life. I had looked briefly at some other systems before, but nothing sounded that logical, true and complete to me as Human Design did. So, it stuck.. and after some self study I also did the foundation courses (LYD, ABC and Cartography) in 2013. But then, it took me a couple of years to even begin to use it in my life and to be in my own experiment... and then a few years more, to be able to become radical with the way I make my decisions. I happen to be quite slow in my process, but now after 8 years I appreciate my slowness and get to enjoy some sweet rewards of cultivating more patience.
I could never imagine that today I will be a certified BG5 consultant. My mind could never be able to know how my journey of becoming a Human Design professional will unfold or when or even if this is for me at all. Maybe 4 years have passed, when an invitation to continue with the official education arrived.. then it all happened to me by its own timing, as I waited and followed with what felt correct.. It was quite an interesting and fulfilling journey of waiting and learning more patience. I didn’t even have the money to pay for the education… but I loved studying and getting to experience more of it, so I focused on that. I waited… and one day, an opportunity showed up through my network. But not just an opportunity - the one that feels so perfect for me!! Suddenly, I had more than enough to pay and exactly on time! Also, I had enough to continue to be financially good long after..ooh, I felt so relieved for not initiating out of fear and thus positioning myself far from where I feel comfortable...pfuuu
Today.. having the certificate, I feel so happy, but I am not impatient to do anything. Rather, I feel calm and a little curious.. I feel more than ever confident in my process, in waiting... see what else is correct and unfolds. Waiting to arrive at my correct places and meet my fractal... waiting and perhaps discovering some more of myself.