It’s almost 8 years since I heard for the first time about Human Design and began this journey and experiment. Finally, I feel ready to share about what happened and how it evolved.
I was at a point in my life, when at 30 I was feeling deeply lost and I still didn't know what I wanted to do in life as a career. By that time, I already had followed a few different directions in my career and also left them behind for going after something new - a business I didn't know and understand anything about. After a while I reached bankruptcy and a great financial struggle, followed by deep depression and not being able to accept my own life and circumstances. I spent around 2 weeks in my bed, not speaking to anyone, almost not eating anything and just crying all the time. Luckily.. in one moment, I got bored and tired of all that and decided to read a book. Of course my intuition picked a book that will save me from my self sabotage. I read about Anastasia - a book from Vladimir Megre, where he writes about a hermit - a beautiful woman living deep in the Syberian taiga. She was telling a story about a possible human life in balance with Nature and one another. Her vision for the future ignited a little spark in my heart and a dream started growing inside me. With my further research, I found Permaculture and many other people that are inspired by these ideas. Following my heart, in 2011 I ended up living in an old little house, deep in the forests of Bulgaria, at a place called Novogorci (you can see photos of my 3 years living in wild nature here - https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10158071069258745&type=3 ). This village was abandoned maybe 50-70 years ago. Me, my partner and just one other couple started a new life there inspired by the idea of creating a better life. We all shared the perspective of living a sustainable life in harmony with Nature, and we did some great Permaculture gardens and projects together.
There, deep in the woods, at that magical place, I heard for the first time about Human Design from a dear friend, who I met there. She suggested I would like to study this system and gave me more information on where to find courses and how to start. First, I was just researching through the free materials I could find. I was completely thrilled with everything I was reading every next day and a process of observation and confirmation of it was emerging. Shortly, after my initial enthusiasm I was proposed a financial support to start studying Human Design in the official IHDS courses. In March 2013 I did my Living Your Design Course and then until the end of the year I completed the foundation courses (ABC and Rave Cartography) with Richard Beaumont in Bulgaria. I was so eager for more and more information that oftentimes I was ahead of the course already and feeling a little bored sometimes. I was contemplating on my next step in studying Human Design, which at that moment I thought was to continue with the professional education and become an analyst, when I realized that I need to stop studying it. Definitely, I knew a lot about Human Design and I could talk to other people about their designs, but definitely I was not living it yet. I was still so much in the beginning of what they say in Human design is the process of deconditioning. By living correctly and following your inner authority you support a process of shedding off layers of conditioning and not-self patterns received from our life. It is how we with our process and one decision at a time, reprogram our cells to the higher expression of our true self. It is supposed to happen in sequences of 7 years and the first 7 years are known as the most difficult. Indeed, for me at 33, it was really hard to start seeing myself and observing my mind agendas and then to not engage with them! I happen to have one of the slowest processes in design. A Projector design, who needs to wait for recognition first and then for an invitation. And it took me a great deal of time to stop initiating and relax into waiting.. I have an emotional decision making process, which involves giving myself as much time as I need to make my big decisions in life. My Personality Sun is in 5.2 - Waiting - Inner Peace - Waiting as an active state of awareness! .. and my greatest teacher of patience. So yes.. I decided to wait and see.. Where this journey is leading me.. Who am I meeting there.. How and when is correct for me to engage as a human design professional in the world.
Following a couple of years when I was slowly falling more and more into acceptance of my process, when I also met the Gene Keys from Richard Rudd. I got deeply involved with it and worked on many projects with the Gene Keys team in Bulgaria. They also invited me to work on the cover and prepress design of the bulgarian edition of the Gene Keys book, and to do a couple of introductory lectures on different events and festivals. The Gene Keys book and The Golden Path, brought me some different perspectives on everything I already knew from Human Design and I liked this for a while.. It happened naturally that when I was speaking with others about their designs I would often look at their human design bodygraph, but at the same time also connect them to their gene keys activations. I was happy to be following my own rhythm with broadening further my knowledge and not be framed through any official educational program. I was slowly being more patient and just loved studying it as it unfolds - already flavoured with my own experience of following my inner authority, and by the failure of it as well.
When I look back, I don't see myself being very successful in following my Strategy & Authority in the first 4 years of my experiment. I did occasionally and it showed me clearly the difference, but in general it was still very hard for me in the beginning. Lately, I understood how it was hard for me to escape from the conditioning I was receiving from my 10 years long relationship and to be able to truly get to follow what is correct for myself. In 2017, a breakup of this relationship freed me and allowed me to be more radical. What followed was a year of getting back on my own feet - slowly embracing my time being alone and seing more clearly my codependency patterns when I am with the other, which also empowered me to take responsibility for my financial issues.
For the last 3 years, being more and more radical with following my S&A, I faced many fears and through correct invitations I worked on a couple of different jobs, which helped me to pay off my old debts. I was invited to continue with my professional path with human design and started investing in my education. Now, I am in my final semester of the BG5 certification program (BG5 System is the career & business approach of Human Design). All of it happened through formal invitations and then processed through my decision making strategy. And here I am today, at the end of my 8 year in my experiment and finally I am able to taste this success.. to be moving correctly in my life, which leads me to places, people and life that I have never dreamed of even exist.. If it was not Human Design, I would never be able to see and live this adventure of life as I am now..
My greatest inspiration with this work is to help others to have more comfort with their direction in life or the lack of it. I am motivated to help my clients to achieve financial comfort and stability, which is coming from correctness for themselves and doesn’t compromise their true self. I had plenty of experiences of working jobs just for the money and not feeling recognized. But also I've tasted the opposite - recognition and invitation is what I recieve now after those first years in my Journey. I love guiding my clients through sharing my unique insights and observations derived from my own process of living my design. Going through the certification program itself, enriched further my knowledge and helped me immensely to explore my unique guiding style as a human design professional. Currently, I am working on my final project and soon will be fully certified Human Design Business Consultant.